"would you one time let me be myself...?"

Pretty basic day today, wore uniform, went to all my classes. Stressed at the library most of 3rd block trying to finish an entire english 2 project V.V hehe i finished and turned it in after school :) Plus my biology teacher told me that if i didint bring my biology book on thursday he'd send me to RRR (detention). Dang -.- Hopefully tonight will be good, really hope so :)

"Lately im so tired of waiting for you..."

Ugh! Life has definitely not been my friend lately. Last 2 or 3 day's have just been a full out roller coaster. All good, then bad, then amazing, boring, good, and now it's just confusing. I wonder is i should just come out and tell him. Too bad i'm worried about if thing's between us are going to change, i'm pretty sure they will. I just wonder how much they'll change =/.

My Fascinatin Day :P

So, it was odd when i woke up today it was 6am and i was in my kitchen...lol so i went upstairs to my room and went back to sleep till like 9 or 10. Then around 12ish i went and got 2 of my friends and then went and got 2 more of my friends, and one of their little sisters. So i had a total of 6 people in my car, including myself. My car fits 5 :P so one of my friends went in the trunk lol! We went all over, we went to walmart and got a thing to hook my ipod up to my car so that it would play lol, 2 of my friends tryed to get it to work and failed lol. Drove to CVS, and ran around hehe. Then all went to the animal shelter and met one of my best friends there. We all hung out and played with the dogs, cats, puppies, so cute! hehe. Plus, 1 of my friends was there with her sister looking at dog's to adopt. We were in a cage with two little puppies and the friend that met us there was holding one of the puppies and it started biting him, and grabbed on his shirt lol! Then the two puppies started fighting right on top of him lol, i felt so bad/scared for him lol. Then around 3ish i had to take 2 of my friends home, so we all left and i hugged my friend bye and went to my car. And as i drove away i looked back and noticed he was standing outside of his car looking at it and was mad, then he was behind me and still looked mad. So i texted and asked what's wrong and he told me. So i dropt all my friends off and went to look at what happened (hehe my secret x] ) Wasent as bad as i was thinking it was, then....my favorite part.... I put my keys in my car right, and went to go give them a hug good bye and my car locked, with my keys inside -.- that would happen to me, especially since a black cat crossed my path at the animal shelter. So i was unhappy lol, and he went and pushed the door completely shut, it was slightly open. And then opened the door, i was baffled. Came all the way home, just to go back out to get dinner. Then came home, once again! And now here i am :)

"My Millionaire Night" :P

Last night was really really good. I loved it. Went to a movie with one of my best friend's! And the movie was really really long, but was an amazing movie, totally worth it. Might go see it again, it was seriously that good. Other than that just a lot of stuff after the movie that i was insanely happy with. Really hope it happens again ;)

Weirdo English Class

So, usually in my english class lately weve been doing poetry & writing about heroes but, today we watched Shrek. Sophmore in high school and we're watching shrek. All my friend's tell me im like Donkey. "I like that boulder, that is a nice boulder!" hehe xD. I decided that because of the fact that i had a really bad night last night i was going to try to have a good day today. So, im trying to be in a good mood. Wether it's real or not, mainly not. One good thing about my english teacher is that she is really chill! She usually let's us text in class, as long as she isint talking to us. So, i decided to text one of my friend's, who seemed a bit upset when i saw her before class. High school drama again V.V oh my gosh! i abdolutely love the song in shrek when Donkey & Shrek first get to Duloc. lol! It's hilarious. Very entertaining. You can see why my friend's think i am Donkey lol. Well that's all for now, Probablly write more later, peace! =)

"but i dont think your ganna change..."

Pretty much anyone that know's me, know's that i can not stand liars! I try my hardest to not lie to my friends, and im usually succesful. But my teachers/parents are a whole other story ;P. Lately everyone has been lying, and for some odd reason yall (yes i say yall) don't think that i catch you. Like ha, tonight i found out that one of my "closest friends" lied. Im not using names, i never do. They told me one thing last week and then a completely different thing today. Cause i deffinitly don't remember what you said (ginormous sarcasm there). There's only one person who i can trust to actually tell me the truth, and it suck's that we don't even go to the same school. I'm starting to realize that there is really pretty much no one that i can trust to tell me the truth anymore (besides that one friend lol). Ugh! I try to put both hope & faith into this person, because god put them in my life for a reason, but lately im just starting to give up. I dont want to say that, and i really dont want to beleive it but, lately i cant help it. And it is absolutely horrible that i cant say that to anyone in my life :(
There are way to many feelings that i keep inside about certain subjects, and about certain people but, no matter what i do or say it wont change anything :'(

Ima Newbie! :D

So, im completely new at blogging, never really done it before. Maybe i'll tell you about me to pass the time, maybe not. Hehe maybe a little bit. Im not really average, at all. Im that dorky person that randomly starts singing. I really love singing, more than anything. Its a great way to express what i feel. On those rare occasions i write lyrics, but usually never share them with people. I'm pretty carefree, yet i have a lot of emotions. It makes no sense what so ever. For some reason i don't know when to shut my mouth. Like, if someone around me, even if it's one of my best friends, is doing something i dont like, i'll call them out on it without even thinking about what im doing or saying. They usually get mad at me, and im like "urgh!". My cell phone is amazing! It's Green :). Bee tee double you (im a strong christian and proud of it!) I wear an abstinance ring every single day. And for those of you who don't know what that is, abstinance means no sex till marriage. Hard but completely worth it to me! Life's way to complicated between friends, home, school, boys, & church it's enough to make ya crazy :P. Especially when the guy know's you exist but, is completely oblivious. Hmmm wonder if he'll ever catch on....Probablly not. Oh wellz...that's high school, i suppose. Well, that's all for now. Probablly write something tommorow :) Peace out peoplez!